Sometimes I get the feeling like everything in the entire world around me (including me) is just horribly vile, and I don’t mean in the germaphobic sense either. Sometimes I’ll just be sitting around, driving my car, watching a movie, lying in bed or whatever… and I feel like everything that’s gross about everything becomes suddenly visible to me. Sort of like, let’s say you have this woman. Incredibly attractive. Beautiful in any and every way you could ever imagine a girl to be. But right under that – right under her hair and skin, behind her perfect eyes, its all repulsing. It’s guts and bile and piss and puss and puke. Stomach acids and blood that would crust over and stain brown.

Maybe it’s weird, but when I occasionally get to feeling this way it’s like the world’s pretty skin is peeled back and all I can see is the puss and puke of my surroundings. I should mention that I don’t mean this metaphorically. I’m not trying to make a statement about people’s true intentions, their secret agendas, or anything of the like. I just mean the physical world and how revolting things are when you think hard about them or look closely enough at them.

On the rare occasion I get this feeling it is always fleeting – it just lasts for a moment and then it’s gone. Just enough to make me stop a moment and shudder among the dinginess of it all.